Currently Listening Live from Mars By Ben Harper see related

hey everyone.

i'm doing alright, except i'm a little bit sick. i went to the doctor yesterday because i've been coughing and i have a bunch of congestion, so i got some medicine for that. i took that for the first time today, and after i took it i felt like i was going to throw up, so i think i'm allergic to my medicine. what joy is mine. this weekend was...interesting...to say the least. some situations arose that i really can't control and i'm trying to figure out. it's definitely God's way of telling me to give it up to Him, which sucks for me because i really want to have control over it, but i know i have no other option than to just trust Him. i'm feeling a little physically weak right now, so i'm going to end this post. i hope everybody back home had a lovely homecoming weekend and that they're doing really well. i love y'all!

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it's been a while. forgive me if some of what i type is incomprehensible because my nails, while in a rare good state, are getting ridiculously long and it's difficult to type (it even sucks while i'm playing piano.) so bear with me.

anyways, i went home this weekend for fall break. i got into houston friday night. i'm going to be honest, being at home was really weird. i saw larry and amy and that was WONDERFUL...but being in my house, sleeping in my room when it isn't decorated (and it's CLEAN...weird) was really odd. it really did just feel like a visit. i guess that's good because it means i consider OKCU my home now, which is almost totally true, but i wish that my staying at home didn't feel so much like staying in a place where i've never lived before. things were a little odd with my mom, too. i really can't explain why. i think it's because for the past two years it was just her and i living in the house, and coming back to that experience after being away from it for a while...i mean, it changes when you live with 300 other girls. i just felt like when we talked that there was something that we weren't saying. she and i and helen have been through so much together over the past five years, and (this is going to sound SO cheesy) it feels like a whole breaking of the fellowship thing, you know? i remember that scene in the last lord of the rings where the four hobbits go back to their pub thingy and they all sit down...and they have nothing to say because they've been through way too much. their love and their bond are tacit and they don't have to speak of it. things got a little better with my mom on monday night after i came back from college station. we had a really long talk, one that involved crying and hugging. i really do miss her alot. she really did raise me...not just for the past five years, but for basically my entire life. she's incredible. what an amazing woman. anyways, i went to college station on saturday and chilled with helen until we went to her friend corey's concert at coffee station. he has a record label called mia kat empire and four of the bands on the label (including his own) played an amazing show. they were stinkin awesome. afterwards we went to HEB and corey and i wreaked havoc upon the store (involving garlic bread antennae and corey's lack of cart-driving skills) and we went back to his house with the ROCKSTARS and made them a very very late dinner. we stayed up late talking to all of them. they're great. on sunday i went to church with helen and to a lovely lunch with her and sarah beck. after that i went to go see ditty at his house, and we watched that AWESOME astros game and got panda express (i really can't eat there anymore...it always makes me feel sick.) i miss him too. he rocks. helen and i both dyed our hair red (but wayyyyyy different shades) later on in the evening. i left monday morning. i really stinking miss my sister. i'm so blessed to have a sister like her that is so wise and so beautiful and totally herself.  i would so be at a&m right now for school...but God's called me elsewhere. um yeah. my sister rocks. on monday i went to eat lunch with collin at pappasito's (of course) where we had a VERY HOT waiter that collin KNEW (and of course, being collin, he didn't introduce me! shame on him lol). i had dinner with my g-rents and my mom, and my mom and i watched sense and sensibility before going to bed. kelsey and i flew back yesterday...and i'm back HOME now!! and i have an audition for fiddler on the roof in about an hour or so, so cross dem fingers!! XOXOXOX

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okay so...well. i guess saying "oh, by the way, i got my belly button pierced!" at the end of an entry wasn't exactly...okay wasn't at ALL very informative. but yeah, that's the short and short of it. it really didn't hurt bad at all, just a pinch for a second, and the girl who did it was really awesome. you know what's a little scary, though? the phone number for the place is 524-OUCH. yeah. it's brilliantly displayed in the window with purple neon lights. how inviting. but it was so clean (the girl changed gloves about fifty times and cleaned EVERYTHING) and i recommend the place to anyone here at okcu. i really like the piercing, but i have to get used to having a bar sticking out of my stomach. it kind of sucks, though, because i can't play mud volleyball (OOZEBALL) next month for homecoming or go swimming. eh well. i still like it.

i was going to go out of town for the three day weekend, but i decided to chill in oklahoma. tonight a bunch of us are dressing up and going out to dinner. this week has gone by surprisingly fast, though. i'm quickly discovering the fabulous luxury of taking naps in between classes - something high school just didn't provide. SPEAKING OF WHICH, i see that facebook now has a high school version! SO WEIRD. oy. but i don't want to go off on a rant because i love all my memorial babies. anyways, naps rock my face off, although i had kind of a bad dream yesterday in between theory and wellness, so it kind of made my day suck. but whatever.

alright, i have to shop for food/clothes/certain movies. i love you all. happy labor day weekend!

janie 

Currently Listening Big Swing Face By Buddy Rich see related

oy.

i've had an epiphany this week. it's not the kind of realization epiphany where you just randomly realize something, but the kind of epiphany where you actually experience it and completely know that something is...something. the next four years of my life are going to be tough. and you go, um...duh? yeah, well, i knew that beforehand. but i didn't realize exactly how tough it would be and where it would be specifically tough. this program is really amazing and therefore ridiculously competitive, and i'm going to have to work harder than i've ever dreamed to get somewhere in this school, and ultimately in this business. i was in acting class this morning and the professor was really tough on me. my natural instinct (not made any better by utter exhaustion) was to get a little frustrated because i knew i wasn't doing it right, but i had to take a step back and go, whoah. this guy knows what he's talking about so SHUT UP and learn something from him. he stopped all of us for a minute to tell us that acting class used to drive him crazy. he said it was so hard. well, if he's standing up there teaching it now but it was hard for him once, i definitely feel better. he told us gregory peck said it was the most miserable and hardest two years of his life when he was studying this technique. sheesh. that makes me feel even better. it's hard all right. i love musical theater and i know i'm blessed to be at this school. i want to work hard. before the acting professor told us all of that this morning, i felt like the class was a little tedious. i was excited, but i still didn't really understand what he was getting at. but now i think he's uncovered a little more of the mystery for us, and it makes me anxious to know what in the world he's going to teach us next. so with all of this music theory and choir and listening skills i have to learn, i keep in mind that four years from now, it's going to be totally worth it (AWWW YAY CLICHE ENDING). yay. so yayyyyy for musical theater! i'd rather be working hard at doing something that i absolutely love than doing something i hate and having to work hard at that (with no motivation whatsoever). woohooo!

in other news, i got my belly button pierced. yay!

janie